Sunday, October 11, 2015

Authentically Me.


Well I have to hold back sometimes because if I were fully me, I’d be too much for people to handle. But you have to be open and honest with people too, because that’s how connections are made!”

It sounds very strategic…”
And then the question was asked, “What would it mean to be your authentic self? To be totally, completely, 100% Brooke.
What would it mean to be my authentic self? Honestly, I’m not quite sure. Every once in a while, I see glimpses. When I confess a struggle to a friend over coffee. Or when I allow myself to cry instead of taking a nap. Or when I’m lying on my parents couch belly laughing to a stupid TV show with my best friend. Most of the time, I don’t really know who my authentic self is. Maybe that’s part of being a twenty-something. Or maybe that’s part of being a human. I don’t know. But I do know who I want the authentic me to be.
I want to be confident. I want to be caring & kind & compassionate & recognize that I can be all of these things and still say “no” sometimes. I want to be loved. Not because of what I look like, or my accomplishments, but because of who I am. I want to be a reliable, trustworthy, & loyal friend. I want to be fun, while still maintaining my morals and boundaries. I want to be able to love without fear. I want to be okay with being alone. I want to be someone who is able to be hopeful in all circumstances. I want to be independent, and yet not afraid to ask for help. I want to be a mother. I want to be a mother whose children never doubt how loved they are. I want to love myself so that I never doubt how loved I am. I want to be a woman of faith. I want to rely on God and be able to fully trust His promises. I want to be excited about my future & learn from my past. I want to feel acceptable & accepted. By myself and by others.
So maybe I don’t know exactly who my authentic self is right now. But I know who I want to be, and that's gotta count for something.

1 comment:

  1. Hello Brooke. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I am glad to get connected with you to share with you a program our church in Mumbai, India has for the young and the adults in the west. I am in the Pastoral ministry for last 37yrs in the great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of
    Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young and the adults from the west to come to Mumbai to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai with your friends to work with us during your vacation time. Since you are a nurse it would be a rewarding time for the poorest of poor people in the slums to have physical and spiritual healing through the medical camp we organize. I am sure you will have a life changing experience . My email id is: dhwankhed(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you

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